Memoirs of early adolescence

Recently I’ve spoken with different friends about their experiences with their adolescent kids. I had to recall my own memoirs of early adolescence for it to make sense. What blog besides Farrell Gallery has more random ramblings and honest viewpoints? Well, probably tons of them, but they’re not as cool, so we’re running with this. Some random thoughts on this may help clear up these mysteries from a former adolescent boy, about the early teen years.

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-We were growing into our bodies and felt awkward.

-Sexuality was coming, but we didn’t know what it really meant yet, and it was frustrating.

-We wanted more independence, but knew we didn’t have all the answers yet. But not to worry, at 16-17, you know everything. Then a few years later, you realize you don’t know shit. The more you live, the less you think you know. But the younger you are, the more you think you know. It’s like being in a maze with no way out.

-We didn’t like much conversation or questions because things were changing for us, and we either didn’t know the answer or thought no one would understand. Just because our parents went through it means nothing, because it was soooo long ago, and people had different genetic makeup or something. Yeah, that must be it!

-Social pressure and looking uncool means life is over.

-Chores to earn an allowance was such hard work, no one understands.

-Being given the choices when prioritizing can be both a good thing and an unbearable pressure. It was like being given enough rope to hang ourselves with, because everything was a paradox.

-One of the best memoirs of early adolescence….what the F is with these zits? What if she says no to the prom? She might tell her friends and then I’d have to move to Nome, Alaska because my life here is over! Thankfully it was a short phase. Very frustrating one, lol.

 

Abandoned houses and meat packaging plant

In my travels to upstate New York to visit family at Thanksgiving, I found a couple abandoned houses and meat packaging plant that caught my interest. This particular house, I did not see a way in, and it was right off a main thoroughfare, so had to be happy with outside photos of this one.

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abandoned house

abandoned house

And this next house, I was driving around with my best friend I grew up with since early high school years. As we admired the mountain views, it began to sleet a little. I spotted this abandoned cottage a ways off the road overgrown with briars and weeds. So we took the adventure and explored. It was awesome, the roof was caving in and getting inside was a breeze, once climbing over a pile of rubble and briars, ouch. But always worth it. I like to give people a little preview of what the experience is like, so they can picture themselves there. It takes a certain sub-culture to get into abandoned buildings. But there is such a story in each one.

abandoned house

Abandoned house

I love these 1960’s – 1970’s appliances.

Abandoned house

Abandoned house

Abandoned house

Abandoned house

Abandoned house

Especially this classic ice box!

Abandoned house

As I was flying into Albany, we were at a low enough attitude where I could see the Tobin’s First Prize meat packaging plant. It looked abandoned! From what I hear, it had been for a long time. Even better for photos! I wasn’t going to pass on this opportunity! It was time to put my rusty Albany geography to work and go find it.

abandoned factory

abandoned factory

abandoned factory

abandoned factory

abandoned factory

abandoned factory

Once employing hundreds of people and being a thriving operation, you wouldn’t know it looking at the shambles it’s in now. But it has such character. I wish I could have gotten in, but it would have been SO dark.

abandoned factory

abandoned factory

abandoned factory

I hope you enjoyed these photos of the abandoned houses and meat packaging plant. You’re welcome. 🙂

Undead bride concept photoshoot

You’re in for a special treat. This is a follow up article for the last article with photos of the abandoned burned down motel. I was with Madison, who was my muse for the day and directed us to this fabulous location. She’s quite handy with special effects and theatrical makeup, as you are about to see with lots of photos! So, we took her skills and my dark vision and ability to use these weathered locations, and did a collaborative undead bride concept photoshoot.

Undead bride concept photoshoot

Undead bride concept photoshoot

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Undead bride

zombie bride

special effects makeup

theatrical makeup

Madison and I have explored abandoned houses together before, and it brought me great pleasure to see how much she appreciated the history and character of the locations that so many others would never get. Part of the fun is exploring and finding cool things, even though it’s code for me to never take anything. Madison found this cool skeleton key hanging on the wall, it even seemed to fit the door behind her but the fire and elements rusted the lock shut.

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A burned and distorted frog / lizard stuffed animal, one of the ugliest things I’ve seen lol.

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A little shutter drag never hurt anyone either. I hope you’ve enjoyed this undead bride concept photoshoot, keep your eye out for more work coming soon.

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Childhood fascination with abandoned places

I grew up in a small village in New York, just outside the city, until I was finished with elementary school and moved around a bit. I can remember Summers where I would be gone for most of the day, doing something with my friends. We rode our bicycles everywhere, but we knew where we couldn’t go. I suppose it should be no surprise that my childhood fascination with abandoned places and weathered locations inspires me today.

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My friends and I would ride our bikes by this old foundry a lot, and explore old industrial areas. There was a big expanse of nothing along side a grocery store that led to the railroad tracks that many of us used for transportation to get from the store to neighborhoods. I preface this with saying that none of us were bad kids, we were just curious and were testing boundaries, and often found adventure in oddly creative ways. One day my friend and I came up with this brilliant idea to go over to the railroad tracks and throw rocks at the passing trains. There was no hurting that train, but it seemed fun and like a release of energy, so we thought we were cool but not hurting anyone. Well, one day a state trooper pulled up and caught us gathering rocks and evidently someone saw us.

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We were maybe 10 years old and scared out of our wits, the cop knew it. He got our names and talked about bringing us to our parents….we looked at each other and just about shit ourselves, lol! He asked us, are you ever going to do this again? We both simultaneously said “no way sir!” And looked at us…..what seemed like an hour of silence was maybe 5 seconds, and he said, get the hell out of here and don’t ever let me see you doing anything like this again, do you understand me? Once again, we both simultaneously said “yes sir” and we were gone in a flash. That lesson stuck with both of us. We are Facebook friends to this day, and although there is no more rock throwing, there is definitely exploration. I get my photos and leave things as I found it, that good karma is working so far. Even today, I still like to piece together what the place was used for and what life was like when it was in operation or inhabited. Never losing that childhood fascination with abandoned places and sense of creativity  / imagination is an artist’s best asset.

Outlook on travel

I’m chomping at the bit, after doing several sexy photoshoots for ladies for valentines day or their anniversaries, not being able to share photos from any of them, lol. That’s the drill though, they have careers and are not in this to be models or public figures in that way. The good thing, in the middle part of this month, I will be hosting a traveling art nude model….more photos to come then! So, no, I didn’t forget how to do it 😛

I was talking with a friend from out of state who was going to be visiting Nashville, and he asked me what to do while here. Of course there are the main tourist attractions, some of which might be of interest. But my outlook on travel is different from many. Rather than experience the shrinkwrapped tourist attractions and call it a vacation, I like to experience it through the eyes of a local. Go where locals go, meet locals, and see what the city really has to offer beyond the tourist traps. You will never get to know Nashville if all you do are the riverboat tours, Grand Ole Opry, stay at the Gaylord Hotel, and walk around downtown and buy boots. I’m not saying that those things shouldn’t be part of a visitor’s experience, but I wouldn’t limit it to that. web_A9O6169

There is a whole city here, real entertainment, antiques, theater, parks, restaurants and pubs, outdoor activities on the outskirts. Think beyond the glitter. Just like when I went to Ireland….I could have just done the coast tour, kissed the blarneystone, toured Guinness, and maybe watched some Celtic games. All those are good things, but I couldn’t imagine not walking around Dublin doing street photography, patronizing local pubs, touring a historic prison, Irish Film Institute and photography institute, etc. As well as hopping on a train and visiting seaside villages. Learning their culture is also part of the experience, instead of being an asshole and expecting the culture somewhere else will be like their own, lol. Travel is a way to get unraveled and to get inspired, and to me is a richer experience when approached this way.

Phone calls

It’s interesting how over the years, the paradigm for phone calls and cell phone use has shifted so much. When I was in my teens, only rich people had cell phones, car phones I think. They’d talk and talk and talk…like shut up already! lol. Later, more of the same with portable cellular phones but everyone wanted to jump on the bandwagon. Later on, texting came out, at first I felt it was a very annoying way to communicate, especially with no QWERTY keyboard. But I later learned it’s value. It was like a pager you could respond to. In my early texting years, in the mid 2000’s, I enjoyed it to a point, but as the conversation became more in depth, and I got back to back texts….I was thinking, just fucking call so we don’t have to waste all this time!

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So, here we are, present day. I received an email from a wedding blog publication, giving  reasons why millennials don’t answer their phones. I don’t think this is accurate for all of them, and of course it will all depend on the call. Basically the obvious here. It’s presumptuous to randomly call someone unannounced that they are available to stop what they’re doing and talk. Plus sometimes it can be a distraction and an interruption, a message or email is more passive and allows for a response at the soonest free moment. Maybe I’m becoming like the millennials in that regard, even though technically, I’m generation x. I have the social skills and confidence to talk to people real time, and in some cases it’s the easiest way to sort things. But in many cases, an unannounced phone call especially when I’m not in a place or time when I can talk, is annoying. I answer if I can. That’s about all I can do.

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I think it’s laziness to be afraid of the phone, but it’s also rude to call someone and not get to the point in this busy day and age. On a personal level, I enjoy catching up with friends, but don’t want to hear long drawn out stories about anything. That’s just inconsiderate of my time. I have a shelf life for the phone, it’s shorter than it used to be, lol. For business, I think it makes it easier in some ways, depending on the preference of the client. It’s easier to get to know them and their unique needs for their nude or boudoir photoshoot by talking in real time. I love face to face meetings with clients. Makes the connection more personal and informative. However, I do prefer to schedule calls so I can clear time out and give the discussion the attention it deserves.

Ideal intimate photo clients

For me, as a freelance fine art nude and non-traditional boudoir figure study photographer, me finding my ideal intimate photo clients is something that takes care of itself in a way. I know most of the market looking for boudoir photos are newly engaged or married, or are looking to do it for an anniversary / valentines day. Most of those prospective intimate photography clients would prefer the more traditional boudoir studio, which usually has female staff. Most of those studios have well designed sets and do a lot of them, with a bright airy feel. Whereas I am more about a blank canvas and focusing on the body and mood lighting. Or we make our own canvas in a residential or outdoor setting, particularly weathered locations 🙂

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I offer something different, that will greatly appeal to those looking for my unique style and skill set. It will not appeal to everyone, which I am ok with. A lot of my clients are looking for exactly what I offer, and come from out of town for their shoot, or fly me in. In that case, they look at my work and once they talk to me in form of an email, phone call, or in person pre shoot consultation, they feel comfortable and trust me. I know the more traditional boudoir clientele may not feel comfortable with me being a male photographer, or if their significant other knows about the shoot, may not have the maturity to even consider this option. Also ok. I don’t defend my gender. My work and reputation, and how I conduct myself are my bond. If you like my style and work, great! However, I’m a man, that’s the way it is. That doesn’t mean I don’t have the skills and knowledge of the female form, or the ability to provide a fun comfortable experience. I feel that my website and communication with them sorts it all out, those with different expectations go elsewhere. It all seems to fall into place. I don’t need to compare myself to boudoir studios, we’re different. One looking for one, will not look for the other.

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And as always. 🙂

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Antique car salvage yard

I took a little journey to Oak Grove, KY. just on the other side of Clarksville, TN. to do some outdoor nudes. She met the owner of this magnificent antique car salvage yard and got permission for us to use it for a photoshoot during their non business hours. I was super excited because I love old cars, old buildings….well, old anything pretty much! LOL! Just not old food. Old wine, sure, if kept properly. It was a partly sunny and partly cloudy day in early December, mild temperatures. Just the feel of this antique car nostalgia land was amazing, I knew upon arrival that I had found a happy place in my creative soul.

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Detroit steel here, it was true Americana just walking around there….a couple of those cars I never even heard of. Cars were art when those car were made, not just transportation. I told Jen that I needed to walk around and take in the environment before we begin. In that process I find inspiration and different ideas, and will help our work be well thought out. Of course, I just couldn’t resist taking some photographs of my favorite cars and trucks there. I just love the lines and textures.

antique cars

antique cars

antique cars

antique cars

antique cars

Antique cars

Antique cars

antique cars

antique Jaguar

antique cars

antique truck

I hope you’ve enjoyed some of these wonderful automotive jewels, places like this are not out there as much these days, this definitely inspired both of us. Thanks Bob for letting us use the yard 🙂

Farrell Gallery process info


 

I love providing a personal, non-corporate experience for my clients. Intimate photography that I provide is a very personal service, and requires a great deal of trust on the client’s part. Not only for a fun, discreet, and respectful experience, but to bring out the best beauty, energy, soul, angles, and body lines in each subject. With carefully crafted lighting and composition. So, I felt that I should explain a couple different random pieces of information that could be helpful when considering booking me for your intimate photoshoot, whether nude, implied nude, or an artistic creative spin on boudoir. To personalize it a little bit, my name is Jay Farrell, a Nashville based fine art photographer specializing in the female form. I love lines, curves, textures, light, and shadows. This is me on a recent trip to Ireland. Since my presence on this site I know is more faceless.

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Creative freedom- I like to discuss projects with my clients and we share each others’ visions, etc. And we both determine if we are a good fit to work together and our styles / visions match up, that way everyone stays happy. I aim to please my clients, but just know I’m not the most “programmable’ photographer. Meaning, one can’t just pitch their very specific idea to me, or expect me to replicate someone else’s work and have it be exactly how they pictured. Every artist will have their unique style of capture and portray what they see and want the viewers to see in the photo. I require a lot of creative freedom to do my job best. After all, that’s why you hire me 🙂 Copying the work of others is not a creatively conducive part of the process. Micro managing doesn’t work. A client and an artist’s process, style, and vision matches up or it doesn’t. It’s very much a team effort.

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Product delivered- Part of my job and area of expertise is the editing / selection process, and the postproduction / Photoshop part of the process. A part of the service that clients rely on me for. I select the best photos from the shoot, I am looking at body angles, lighting, composition, how fingers, arms, feet, legs, neck, etc. are positioned. Plus expression and mood, all of what makes the most successful photograph, that’s what I do. I do not provide any RAW files, or all unfinished proofs. That’s standard for any professional photographer. Those are not available for purchase or posted online. If the client wants to be involved in the selection process, that can be done following the shoot at my studio, even if the shoot is done on location. However, most do not, they know that’s the job they are trusting me to do, otherwise why would they have hired me? It’s about protecting the image of my work, and the quality of the product delivered to the client. A writer does not publish scratched off notes, only the final version of the story. Same here. 🙂 To work together requires mutual respect for the process for it to organically work.

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Discretion- I know there are many career women who get boudoir or artistic nude photography done who do not want images of them out there, or online…or for family reasons, all understandable. I always offer exclusivity and non-disclosure for private clients. In a case where a client is ok with any, or certain images being used on my website or blog, nothing is used without prior knowledge and clarification. Any other questions, let’s talk 🙂

 

Why not traditional boudoir?

Every photographer has a different style and inspiration that flavors their work, whether a wedding photographer, or boudoir / intimate photographer. I’m a fine art nude and more edgy style non traditional boudoir. So why not traditional boudoir? There are a bunch of boudoir studios in Nashville and most other major cities in a more traditional sense. They do what they do, and many clients love it. A good studio of that sort is very good at styling and set design. That’s not my bag at all. Because of that, it doesn’t make sense for me to work under the same design.

For me, it’s more about the light and curves of the subject, using textures, and mood to make a photograph. It still has that intimate private feel, but more mood and shadowing, where the location can still add to the photograph, but less emphasis is on the location, and more on the female form. In it’s somewhat vulnerable, sexy, and confident state. Set design doesn’t inspire me, so it’s best I do what I do well and offer something unique for customers who want something different with more edge. There’s enough to go around for everyone. In this life, we do best doing what inspires us.

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